GIve Me a Word...

Tired
I am,
Unsure
I feel,
Focused
I am not.


"Come here"
You say,
"Sit and you may find"
I am reluctant,
But what good is there?
What will I gain?


I have other things to do,
Stuff I must attend to.
"What stuff is there?"
"What is so important?"


I do not know really,
I ask myself,
What is it?


What is this stirring within me?
"Come."


I have things to do.
"Stop and come,
Come and receive a word."


Feel my breathe,
Aware of my surroundings
Pause,
Read in,
Be still,
Think,
Focus.


To sit here...
This is my delight.
To receive your words.
I want and desire to spend the rest of my life 
chasing after you.


In your midst,
In your presence I am lifted up
And others are too,
Sean, 
Caleb,
[Will, Charlie, David, Martha, Jay, Harold, Cindy, 
Jonathan, Sophia, Elizabeth, Brady, Annara, Rob,
Keith, Julie, Evan, Matt, Nicki, Beth, Jaime, Jeanette,
Meg, Joel, Erin, Gabby, Dan, Kyle].


Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done on earth
(Here, in my home, through me)
As it is in heaven...


Remember.
Focus. 
Focus.
Focus.


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